Retrograde

I am so excited to tell y’all about the journey back to my authentic Self, again. My own personal, retrograde, presented me, a lot of time that I spent in solitude. Alone, with just my thoughts and shadow side. Which revealed to me, my own self-defeating thought patterns and habits. 

Lots of unhealed pain and trauma surfaced, but facing my hurt and fears, allowed the tears to flow & it became a much needed, release for me..Read the article, “Release” click link here, https://triddykatsmeow.com/release

I’d grown accustomed to status quo and caring more about a sense of security, than Self Love... I was becoming restless, that emptiness in me wouldn’t cease. Choices. I could continue on, knowing my soul began to require more or remain stagnate. The choice was only mine to make. Read the article, “Choices” click link here, https://triddykatsmeow.com/choices Was I ready to face my truth? Can I tell others that I had unrealistic expectations of them? Would I follow my heart? These are the thoughts, one must process, when an old cycle is closing out. Don’t let others fool you, it’s never about them. No people pleasing allowed. If others are making you feel guilty, that’s a red flag. Allow no-one to hinder your forward movement in life. What is your heart calling out for? Follow the heart only, Not your lust.

Growth can be painful but it’s very necessary. Take a closer look at you. Who are you? Can you live just how you are living right now, for the next ten years, heck five? You already know the answer. If it’s no, what are you doing about it? Retrogrades are do overs. You get to go clean up a mess you’ve made, if you still can. You get to forgive those that hurt you. You get to release any guilt or shame for mistakes made…. and, you get to apologize to yourself and others for simply not knowing any better. It’s a gift from Source to make corrections. We get to close cycles out the correct way. Not petty on some bs but as adults, communicating like adults.

When I left others behind, they got together out of jealousy and planned and plotted wicked things to try to hinder me. Notice I said, “tried”..because no-one but Source can stop me. I don’t believe in others ruling over people, so I pay people that don’t know any better no mind. Let them try, I prove them wrong each time. I decided on the latter. I hated that many were mad but I owed them nothing. It was time, so I remained true to me. Knowing in time, it will all make sense. I was no longer wanting to repeat, the toxic pattern of lying to myself. So, I didn’t. Retrograde. My, do-over.

My first reaction was to people please but I’d be lying to myself. I could no longer consciously, do that again. So, I didn’t. It felt so good to be walking in my truth, again. Bump, Society’s opinion, I tried things their way… it left me stripped of authenticity. I wasn’t willing to do that to myself again. I fit in with me, that’s all that I cared about now. I dance to the beat of my own drum, always have. Whenever; I tried to do what others did…I got dragged. Slang. Finally, I could breathe again. I decided to go deep within and look at the real me, again. BUT…Who was I, now? I had to find out. Read the article, “Self” click link here, https://triddykatsmeow.com/self

I discovered, I’d left myself, starving for Self Love.. and, then, I had an epiphany ..I’m no longer willing to compromise my true self, to keep “anyone” else happy, at my expense, ever again. Not anymore. That’s what true self love is about..its about showing compassion, forgiveness and Love to oneself . Read the article, “Self Love” click link here, Self Love

Source began to reveal that the people surrounding me, wanted and expected my love but none were returning their love back to me. I walked away from all. I began to give me that love instead of giving it to people, who didn’t know how to reciprocate love. They were too draining. Anyone that could not understand that, would no longer fit into my life. Period. Slang. I began to make the necessary changes. I searched diligently for what I needed most..that was to heal from attachment trauma. I worked on me. I wished all, then let go and detached..it was absolutely freeing. Read the article, “Free” click link here, Free

Many are not happy that I found my true self again because in that process, I could no longer guarantee them a seat at my table. I could care less. I decided to love the inner child in me, ferociously and I poured all the love that I’d given to others, back into my own Soul. I left those that were only around to take from me alone. I gave me, what I needed instead. It was LOVE. Source poured into me, that which I’d so readily gave others.. Source is Love and it’s the only thing real, folks. Read the article, “Inner Child” click link here, https://triddykatsmeow,com/inner-child

I stopped blaming others for betraying me, realizing, I had only betrayed myself. I cried uncontrollably, for what I had allowed and done to “myself.” How could I not see it? That I lacked in Self Love… Wow. Denial, is a hell of a drug. Cognitive dissonance isn’t pretty. Through betrayal, I was awakened to truth. I needed to LOVE ME MORE. So, I did. Smile.

I decided no one could ever love me or be my cheerleader, like I can. I followed my heart, closed my eyes and “let go” of it all…scariest sh*t I ever faced, alone. It was terrifying. I learned how to stop caring about what didn’t care about me.. I was no longer ok with being an enabler because I saw how I’d stunted the growth, in many around me. Labeling it “love” but it really isn’t. It’s codependency on people. Playing the role, of the savior and even, martyr, of everyone, except myself. How self-righteous is that? Pure foolishness. It was time to finally grow up, so I did.

I released all…and everyone. Everything, that is meant to be in my life, will appear and it will be right on time. The Universe is abundant, there is no lack … I let go of the poverty mentality. I continue to move forward…I took my journey, alone..letting it remind me, that everything, I ever wanted and needed, I already possessed within. Hot Damn, folks, I conquered the beast within. By knowing thy Self!

I’m so glad that I did all that Source instructed me to….It wasn’t easy at all but it’s how, I finally located, the real Me, again! A Leo, rightfully crowned, King of the Jungle with a Heart of FIRE…I used Divine Intelligence, allowing it to guide me. A retrograde. A do over. How cool is that? Talk about the Divine’s Love.

What have you released this, retrograde? What new beginnings, will you pursue? Go for it, The Divine has your back. Be as bold as the Fire signs… but do things from a good heart space. Leave your trifling ways behind in the past…it won’t serve you anymore. That cycle is closed. Decide to change course now…The Divine is requiring it. Read the article, “Cycles” click link here, https://triddykatsmeow.com/cycles

You’d be crazy not to use this powerful energy, we’re all are being blessed with right now. So go create, something new…bringing closure to the old! Remember to be about the Father’s business while you’re doing you. That way…You can’t lose! Wink.

*This was originally, written and created by, “ TRIDDY KAT® ” posted on March 27, 2017. 

Updated 2/23/23

Keep shining.

~Triddy Kat💋

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